Somewhere.

Somewhere between the hectic work day
somewhere between the numbing thoughts
the subconscious decides to be a prick again
memories long forgotten start playing in repeat
an old friend, only a week and a half gone.

suddenly everything stops.
you thought you could handle normality once more,
you thought you could re-enter the rat race again.
your life was finally getting on the right track
just as things start to feel normal. you remember.

you can't ignore it. you musn't ignore it.
how can you?
one of your best friends just died,
how dare you try to live normally?
how?

Dedicated to Zeev,
He Died well before his time.

half a year later... non the wiser

here, in lovely ireland, i lay in a hostel bed, surrounded by 2 friends and an australian, i found peace... somewhere between Sixmilebridge and Doolin, i stopped thinking of the future, worrying of whats to come, fearing my own destiny. i let go, and my mind flows with the greens of the fields, the subtle swaying of the trees by the wind, the smell of the wildlife as it fills all parts. i guess i really needed this trip more than i thought. it alll ends on wednesday though, i'll return to the stress, to the pushy lifestyle i've grown used to, to moronic bosses, to hecktic deadlines and empty days, but my smile will be genuine, pure and true, for my soul has been cleansed and my mind cleared, i have found my center, my cure, my drug... i'm sure i'll return to the shores of this great country once more, in time...

missed last year's passover greeting

but happy Passover/Easter
have a great week!

i'm gonna try again...

wish me luck...
hopefully things will turn out better the second time around.

sometimes i wonder

i spent the better part of this weekend just watching Scrubs.
i really love this show... and i can relate to Dr. Cox most of all... then i took a test and surprise surprise:

Your result for The Which scrubs character are you Test...

Dr. Cox

Your the man (or at least so you believe) you tutor this little whiny brats because you have to not because you care. Its your way or the highway so people better get out of your way.

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other things i did this weekend include:
- sleeping
- not repairing the car
- drinking
- studying

which is exactly what i planned on doing, except the not repairing the car thing... but it wasn't my fault - i got home and fell asleep and when i woke up the garage was closed.

all in all - things are pretty good so far - nearing the end term test marathon
i need a date.

better late than never...

The Puppet Folk Revival!
or at least my 8 video clips :D

hexes, vexes, cold and heat...

soup... hot soup.
cocoa and thick blankets... i love the winter... but i was unprepared today...
i had to re-assure a friend of mine, who had thoughts about dropping out of studies because her grades were low... and all the while i was thinking that i need to pick up slack on my end if i want to finish with good grades too... and suddenly the pressure dawned on me. combine that with my hectic work load and lack of sleep(left the university at 2:30 AM and got there at 8:00 AM) and some other things(so called "friends"). so i snapped a bit. collapsed under the pressure, and suddenly everything got to me. was mad at everything, everyone...
so i went a bit crazy... but i caught myself in time...
tomorrow Puppet Folk Revival!