Sunday, November 26, 2006

Clean...

Finally had the balls to open the letter, after today was a very weird day...
it all started with a long conference between 6 pm and 7:30 pm which was canceled(moved to tomorrow morning at 8:30, no late wake up for me!)
then it included getting lost in tel-aviv, whilst trying to avoid the traffic jams, took me an hour and 15 minutes to get home, i probably would've done it in 40 if i wasn't an idiot.

alright, backtracking, cause i didn't write the full story about what happened 2 weekends ago...
i was at a private party on friday, that much you all know, what happened at the party, well that's another story...
i got drunk, well i was'nt driving back so i didnt care, and i met up with this chick, we played a few drinking games, like whenever your partner drinks, you drink, and so on...
one thing led to another, we ended up having sex(make sexy time ~ sorry i saw Borat friday and it's just too damn funny!!!!). so anyway, i wake up at the place(we were all sleeping there because we weren't in a state to drive back home) and the girl was gone, i asked around and no one knew her, the guard said she came in after someone waved her in... apparently she crashed our party, anyway so i just came to terms with the fact that i just had unprotected sex with a girl i didn't even know, or would ever meet again...
so i do the first logical thing i could, i go get an aids test, saturday night, and i get the results by mail on thursday, and i've been too afraid to check my results.

back to now, after the long drive home, i was half pissed and half weary from the day, so i asked 2 of my friends(who were with me on the drive home) if they wanted to go drink somewhere, they said yes, and i took that as a great time to just open the damn test results, and use the beer as a way to get over it, if needed.

luckily i'm not positive, i'm clean, as far as the test says.
i'm happy for that.
that's about it for today....
go see Borat, you wont regret it!

Friday, November 24, 2006

Oh What a Week

I've been having problems sleeping for like a week and a half, and finally
on wednesday night, i found my rest, a solid 6 hour sleep session.
thursday brought on 11 hours of sleep like a blessing.

it's the end of the year, and my money is going like crazy on stuff i havent even planned on... i have to register my car for the new year, which is like 1000 shekels...

All my plans have gone to ruins...
I was supposed to go to Haifa today, and visit a sick friend, then visit someone whom i haven't seen in a while... but plans change, and i stayed at home, went to play basket ball, the usual story :)
Invader Zim! i've forgotten how good it was.
Me and Li-Or have made Lunch plans to watch the episodes :)
it's cold at night, especially in my room, the only thing keeping me warm now is this bowl of Orange soup - don't look at the screen like that! it's really good, it has yams, pumpkins and carrots in it, and it's the bomb.

my sister's wedding is less than 3 weeks away and now the bugging of the formal clothing has come.
i'm not all that excited, to say the truth, but i guess that's just me... everyone else is crazy, so i get to remain sane.

my flight is 23 days away, i can't wait already, with work being a lot like hell, and my patience wearing thin, i'm doing the best i can just to survive the days.

i cant really complain though, starting december i'm heading a new project which will most likely be very interesting and will require a lot of thinking on my part. call me crazy, but its these things that cause me to enjoy my job, not the constant nothingness that i do now.

that's about it for today.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Something I should Ask about...

late night party,
woke up at 3 pm,
still dazed.


weekend's finally here, this week i havent slept much, been having problems falling asleep... i found myself lying in bed for 4-5 hours, not sleeping, yet not really awake. last night i finally slept :)
Wednesday I drove home from work, and got a flat... I guess that was gods way of telling me to go get a checkup, 700 shekels, 2 new tires and new breaks later, my car is good to go :)
I'm a Weird Al-coholic, and when i saw what jib-jab did to his song, i thought it was spread worthy, look for yourselves and tell me what you think...


have a great week people!

Monday, November 13, 2006

I Might be a tad selfcentered...

--- totally unrelated bits and peices whilst i clear my mind from today ---
Yoav, a good friend of mine, after i started this blog, sent me a link to his blog, and appearently i ignored it, totally... which is sad, and probably not as nice of me.

Today I sms'ed with L, a friend of mine, i really hate sms. it's a fucked up thing... it's so unnatural to talk via short, fixed messages, i guess most people are addicted to it, but thats just not me, i love to hear the person's voice when i talk to him/her.
it's like everyone tries to build barriers with sms's and emails... its easier to say something in cold dead letters than it is to actually say it to someone, hear the breaking of his/her voice, see the facial and body language
she seemed so distant, so cold, she said she was fine, and i want to believe her, but i just can't seem to shake this feeling.

H, another friend of mine, she was in the U.S. till last week and she bought me a Nintendo DS, yes i know, it's a toy, but i'm just a big boy, and i love these gadgets :)

Today i learnt of a potential couple in production(not gonna say who though, that part's a secret) and i'm really glad about it, they both seem fitting for eachother.

Also today, Y, did his releasement thing, he finished his service, after 4 years i think, Y isn't so much a friend, but he's a good guy, he's funny and smart, he's a buddy, not more, we talk occasionally, but not like friends... Spammers in our soul :), anyway Dudu Zhar was there, he's the Israeli equivilant of a Sessami Street Actor here, and he's also Y's addiction... it was so funny when he saw him...

tomorrow is a fun day! - we got a trip to see how chocolate is made and to the museum of science, fun fun! and tomorrow night is a Reunion for the people in the Pearl-Jam concert we saw... it's gonna be a great time :)

that's about it for now... i'm all tired and stuff, havent slept too much these days, and i'm starting to feel it, my head is slower, my muscles ache... god i feel 50, and i'm only 23 :)

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Love, Concequences and Hatred....

I'm back, if anyone noticed... or not...
This last week was one of the best weeks I've had so far...
70 hours of driving around in a car, patrolling and having enough time to think gave me a few insights...

the biggest one being my issues with unrequited love...
it stings, it hurts, it's always there, in the back of your head, giving a false hope, that someday, that person, whomever it shall be, will one day realize that you are much more than a friend, someone that they love, you know, like the movies, but life isn't like that, and sometimes perfect couples don't exist, no matter how much they complete each other, because, well because it isn't a question of that, and waiting will only hurt more and more...
I've had a few of those, women whom i thought were the perfect match for me, but turns out that the more i think that we should be together, the less my chances are with them.
I've decided to let go, I've had 3 women whom i love, i really do, but my love is one sided, and thus wasted...
those girls know(I've talked to 2 of them) or will know, after reading this post, that I'm done, its too hard on me. and you know what, since all three of you do read this post, it's your loss.

I've also decided that I'm gonna start dating out of my "class" - you know the borders of which you know your potential of dating her are valid(think supermodels and geeks...) well, I've had enough of dating in my class, I'm gonna meet someone better than me.

for the first time in a while I'm happy, relieved, i feel so much better...
this guarding trip has totally fixed me up.

i may not be successful, but at least i'm gonna try, and thats more than most people do.

Friday, November 03, 2006

A Ticket in hand...

and nothing to lose...
I need a vacation... i guess that's why i'm taking this "trip" down south...
I volenteered to take guarding duties next week, so i'm gonna go guard a base for a week... i figure a week from work, and the people there will help me clear my head a bit... i hope so.
i also bought a ticket to n.y. for december, i'm gonna go there and relax through new years...

there are a few things i can always count on to cheer me up, a friendly face, beer, trips, "weird al" yankovic and senseless violence ala celebrity death match.

today i've accomplished :
beer.
"weird al"
violence
trip

all in all, it's been good so far...

have a great night!